school....

routine life
getting sick of it, but used to it nevertheless.

A New Day Begins
Wake up at 0600
Ready by 0630
On the bus at 0700
Get to class by 0730
Bum my books from the locker by 0740
Finish up any OUTSTANDING homework
Bell rings at 0755
Assemble by 0800 to sing the National Anthem and the Pledge taking
Lesson begins at 08plus
Survival of the fittest begins
Brain stuffing begins
School's out at 1725
Slack around school
Home by 1830 (subject to differ)
Starts homework by 2000
Revision and some reading at 2130
Official Slack time 2230
In bed by 2315
The Day Ends



That's a normal day for yours truly. I feel like a zoombie going about a usual day. I need some excitement, some fun, some difference, some LIFE. School is basically fine and cool as long as there's something to look forward to and people I look forward to see and talk to. Studying's not all that bad. The complaining I hear from other students are like unbearable agonies and sufferings of the worst kinds of pains. Maybe they don't see a purpose in the attending of school. now that i do.. SCHOOL'S FUN!!!!

I've thought about my life a little, reflected on my past and thought about my future. I figured that I've wasted about an hour staring into mid-air, but at least the wheels in my head kept moving.
I figured that
As long as I'm willing to live, I'll find a purpose in life.
As long as I try to be happy, I'll find happiness.
As long as I do my best, there's nothing I'm going to regret.
As long as I want something, no one can stop me from getting it.
The only thing that's stopping me, is me.
I'm the only obstacle out there. I'm going to overcome my fear somehow or another. No matter what others say, I don't give a s*** about the crticism I get as long as I know what I'm doing is right.

So go ahead, make my day or ruin it, inspire my life or dampen my feelings, encourage me or doubt my abilities..I am who I am and nothing's ging to change that fact.

I've given up feeling sorry about my sorriest fate. I'm going to stop behaving like the world's ending this instance. I'm going to be as joyful as anyone can get. At least I'm going to try to be NORMAL. Not that I ever was... But it never hurts to try something normal once in a while

For those who have no complete idea of what I'm talking about, leave it as that and don't even find out. It's not worth your time. Trust me.



It hurts to be abandoned, left alone to grieve.
It hurts to know that people lie, and that they do it with deliberateness.
It hurts to discover that people you thought you knew are really completely different.
It hurts to find out the truth, even if you suspected it all along.
It hurts to realize that what you had thought was reality is really just a complex construction of pretense, a facade.
It hurts to see the past reliving itself in the ones you love.
It hurts to know that there is nothing that can be said or done to make things better.


It's the worst experience to LOSE SOMEONE CLOSE TO YOU.
It's horrible to think they don't know that you always think of them, hope for love to be returned and caress ,however all my hope is gone and my passion has been drained.

Because
I've been there.
I know what it's like.
I know how it feels.
I'm familiar with that abyss.

Guess it's true that if you truly love someone so deep, so true and so pure, you'll let them go. And if love is returned from the bottom of the heart, then it's really love made in heaven..

Don't everyone wish their fairytale ending to be along that line? Don't you? I know I do.


If I had a rose for everytime I thought of you, I'll be picking roses my entire lifetime. But there's simply not enough roses to fill the thoughts and love I have...