help!!

help.. i just wanna have my own self back in school.. nowadays i feel like im someone else in farhana's body.. come on.. im not like this.. im all weak.. why am i feeling like this.. i've made up my mind to start a neww beginning, since its a brand new year, without this person.. but why am i feeling otherwise?? why cant i just do as what my brain orders me to!!??? i admit yes.. i do feel different without this person around.. i do feel some sort f empty. but im trying m best to put this feeling aside.. i feel sad too.. but what am i supposed to do about it?? this space deep deep in my heart looks for this certain someone everyday, everytime WITHOUT fail.. what do i do?? how do i take this misery..this pain.. away and out of me?? sob sob.. help me please someone...


Do not save your loving speeches
For your friends till they are dead;
Do not write them on their tombstones,
Speak them rather now instead.


To Hanif...
We had angry words...We had a spat and said hurtful words we didn't mean. How silly it all seems.At the light of a new day. What happened to "for better or worse?" Have we grown too intolerant of the other?We fool ourselves to believe we fully know the other - Our patience has waned.
I tresure you for all eternity.
So, I promise and I hope you do too to be a bit more as we were when all that mattered was the nearness of each other.
I promise to do my best to be less judgmental. To be less quick with my tongue and less short with my wit. Forgive me for saying that which I wish I hadn't..And I shall forgive you too.
I cherish you for all eternity.

I am sorry...

A little someone,
Noor Farhana


memories..

I treasure sweet old memories
As time goes swiftly by.
A few bring smiles of happiness
And some tears to the eye.

They all are precious in their way,
Reopening doors of old
That have been shut these many years--
What pictures they unfold!

These dear old, sweet old memories
All play their special part
In bringing joy and opening up
The latch strings of the heart.

Memories are heartbeats
Sounding through the years
Echoes never fading
Of our smiles and our tears.
Moments that are captured
Sometimes unaware
Pictured in an album
Or a lock of hair.

Images that linger
Deep within the mind
Bit of verse we cherished
Once upon a time.
Through the musty hallways
Of the days we knew
Ever comes the vision
Beautiful and true.

Memories are roses
Blooming evermore
Full of fragrant sweetness
Never known before.
Life must have a meaning
Goals for which to strive
Memories are lights that burn
To keep the heart alive

i trusted you more than anything,
But I made the biggest mistake,
And i was hurt in the end.

I believed you, I trusted you,
I cared for you, and at times I cried for you.
But in the end I didn't get the real truth
I made the Biggest mistake
And now my heart bleeds.

So now I'm asking you why?
Why did you hurt me that way?
I called on you when I needed help.
But in the end I was betrayed

I did everything in my power,
To make you suceed, to achieve your goals.
Then you turned your back on me,
And now my heart is filled with holes.

And now I'm the fool
I believed you, I trusted you
Now you say you are sorry.
Is that all you have to say?