love?

Love is really a hard thing don' t you agree? Indescribable, to a positive extend, mind you. Beautiful and inspiring. Yet love is hard to understand.

Alas, no mere mortal can resist the luring of this force, so powerful and miraculous alike, being attracted by this force is neither a weakness nor a flaw one possesses. On the contrary, being able to stand as one with the force is admirable and the feeling is simply splendid. For many can only dream of the joy it can bring and bliss to one’s soul one can achieve from such a petite feat of declaring one’s inner feelings towards another and also the fact that one is brave and valiant enough to face reality and accept the truth.

Love is not to be ashamed of.
Love is not to be ridiculed.
Love is not to be humiliated with.
Love is to be embraced with open arms.
Love is to be held within an open and a true heart.
May the journey of true love start.
May the currents of love flow in your veins
May the rhythm of love beat in your heart
May the voyage of love sail you to the arms of the destined.
If you love someone,
put their name in a circle, instead of a heart,
because hearts can break, but circles go on forever.
If you judge people, you have no time to love them It takes a minute to know on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to have a crush on someone, a week to understand someone- but it takes a eternity to forget someone.

romantic

Everything's wrong. For me, at least. I've lost everything. It's all hopeless. I wonder why am I still drifting in my ocean of worries when I'm better off drowned in it. It completely ticks me off. From my gravity low results, to the tough decisions I have to make. Has the world something against me? What have I done to deserve all these? I don't smoke nor drink nor gamble nor do drugs, I don't cheat nor steal. I always do my obligatory prayers and I never missed one. I go home straight after school, if I have nothing on. I do MOST of my homework, I have yet to be late for anything. Yet, I doomed to never lead a simple life. It's really hard.

Seems that everytime I try to stand tall and forget my problems, I feel my problems slouch on me. I need some TIMEOUT. No can do. Time and tide waits for no man. Get me a knife. Quick.

Crazy Insane, Insane Crazy.
Failings becoming a NORM. My clean record, is now filled with dirt and grime, all piling up.Do you ever think about your blind spots? The things we do or say may have an impact on people, be it good or bad. Everyone has good points and some weakness here and there. I'd rather someone close to tell me my mistakes, than a complete stranger. Another thing, I believe that all our wrong doings can't be seen by ourselves...
So if you'd be kind enough, would you do me a favour and tell me mine? Change is not something that can be done overnight, but I'll try to change for that better.

I suppose it comes from the Romans. Perhaps they were very romantic people. Yet in books, the French are the most romantic people in the world.
.Think about it...
.French kiss
.Paris - the city of love
.Fiancee - its a French word of engagement

However, how can anyone be rated by general?
Then the real question pops out...

Am I romantic?
I was pratically rolling on the floor when I heard this question over the radio. Then when I came to my senses, I figured that I'm not much of a stone hearted person, at least I feel so. While I may get flutters in my stomach when I meet someone I'm very attracted to, I try not to let my romantic-self entirely dictate how I proceed. Not that I've been in love to many times to be concidered EXPERIENCED, but being in love feels good.

The sterotype of a romantic person is off course... ...

Love Poetry
Candle-light Dinners
Seaside Walks
Flowers and Chocolates
Private Movie Screenings
But the thing is, another sterotype is... ....it'll only be romantic if guys does it.


How about true love...?

I believe that it exist, but somehow life makes it hard to happen. With so many obstacles sandwiched in between, it seems that true love is just a mere illusion.

How about love at first sight... ?

I don't find the attraction from looks. Simply because I don't personally take much consideration of a person's outside. Off course I see the overall appearance of a person. But that doesn't make me like a person at first glance. I don't stand for the "love at first sight" theory. A person who makes me smile even after a pissful day would be a much better choice compared to a guy who is just pleasant to look at. Though looks come as a bonus in certain cases, I beseech to stress the point that personality, character and moral values currently hold the most important asset I myself look out for.

love?

Your Brain is 47% Female, 53% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Love? Is there such a word? Is there such a feeling? Maybe not. But what are its effects? Nobody can ever say for sure. For me, I guess I have experienced its aura, so to speak. I'm sure everybody has.

It's comparable. There are after all many types of love. Be it family, parental, or BGR. Maybe the last type will be experienced last in line in a person's life. But yes, for many of us here, we are fortunate to have the first two and often enough, we take it for granted. We treat it as if it's supposed to be there each and every day that we live, not realising that so much as God's proverbial finger snap can immediately take away the lives of those we love deeply.

But at this supposed stage of life, we are not expected to feel it. Those who do are labelled as infatuation. Yes. It may be true. But after a while, or at least getting the prescribed feeling more than once, you seem to be able to differentiate between the 'mock' and the real thing. Then again, biasness may get in the way. So then, if it is not us to judge for ourselves, and others constantly do not bother about it, then who is it that says, "Hey! You're in love!"?

Nobody does that. Nobody I've known so far at least. It's a process, not a one-stop thing. It's not after, say, 3 days after you meet the person, you start to like the person. I don't thing it works that way. It's more like after a long period of time of getting to know the person's likes and dislikes, preferences and hates, personality and yada yada, then maybe, you can say for sure that you might start liking the person.

But then again, to love a person, it is equally ironic and oxymoronic that you say you like a person for his/her looks or his/her particular personality. Because loving a person has to come with the whole package, and that includes accepting the weaknesses as much as embracing the person's strengths. There's not much of a choice here, unless of course, the choice of completely backing out and finding someone new.

a kiss then goodbye...

A Kiss...Then Goodbye.

We had to leave it all here today,
Though many things left to say.
Please don't stop me till I'm through,
This is something I have to do.

We've been here so long.
Guess it was like a song.
Please,don't you cry.
Let's just hug and say goodbye.

Months will pass us by.
I'm going to miss you,
I just can't lie.
Think; its the right thing to do.

Understand me won't you try?
It's going to hurt me,
I just can't lie.
but its the right thing to do.
Let's just kiss and say goodbye.

Time changes everything,
From winter to spring.
But one thing stays the same,
Your breathless charm and memories that came.


Back to A levels study mood..Although I did sneak a little time off to enjoy :D A man with dignity is the one who stands by his words. Really appreciate it.For now..My life will most probably retain its monotony. Unless of course..Something interesting happens again.Day 6 of mugging. Ok it's been quite good. The motivation is damn high, so must make full use of it before the magic wears off. Although I'm not expecting the whole thing to disappear, but I'm sure some will start forgetting about it. Of course, the best would be it last till 'A' levels. But hell... This world ain't that perfect. So yeah...

Only in poverty, do you appreciate wealth.
Only in solitude, do you appreciate sociality.
Only in sickness, do you appreciate health.
Only in sadness, do you appreciate joy.
Only in war, do you appreciate peace.
Only in death, do you appreciate life.

Read line 3... I really really really appreciate health right now. I'm so darn sick. My nose is sore. My throat is sore. My eyes are red. I'm having a mild fever.

I want to feel well again... ARGH!!! It's 'cause of my weird sleeping patterns. I can't sleep before 10. I only sleep when I'm sleepy. I only sleep when I'm at ease.

The first two are ok. But the last one... Well... If I say that I'm seldom at ease... You would know why then... Haiz...

How can you feel at ease when... ARGH.. Heck..

Gonna turn into more like another complaining session already. Shall stop here. Bleh..

Bottomline: I'm sick.

drowned in ecstacy..

Nobody but you would understand this plethora of words. Maybe you'll read it, maybe you won't.

Just when I thought you have taken a huge step out my life, I've decided to put up a 'Welcome Back' banner and laid the red carpet back for your entry. Neither options are considered ideal, because a win situation for me in this case is totally out of the question, but it is possible to squeeze out optimism even in the bleakest of situations, and I feel this does not differ from those that I have come across before, or at least those concerning you.'

You know. Whenever I try, it always fails, without doubt. As of now, the tally stands at about 5-0. It is about 5 attempts or even more, but a consistent rate of failure. Never mind that. However, when you do ask, it seems, I never fail to give in. Maybe because I still want it more than you do, and that a small part of me still chooses not to give up on even the tiniest of probabilities that miracles still happen. It seems like the process goes through a special logic gate. When my input is 1, it will always turn out output 0. Yet when your input in 1, it remains as such in the output.

From inference, I suppose it is you who makes the calls. I am purely alright and not against that, as long as it in no way conflicts my purposes and aims. I am acceptable in you making the decisions because I realise most of my efforts, if not all, to exert, would be futile. I'd rather you come to mind how and what should happen, and then maybe some progress can be made from there onwards.

After today, I was overwhelmed with ecstacy, though I displayed little of it. I still remembered the first time it happened, and I was more than glad that today happened the way it did. You merely put little to the hiccups that happened earlier in the morning before I met you. Those suppressed feelings may have been pushed all the way down to God-knows-where, but today, they surfaced like rising bubbles in boiling water. All this while, I distracted myself, concentrated on other work, met new people and interacted more with them, all in the attempt to forget about and not think of you. As of today, all that was successful.

You know... When I look at that picture, my first focus is on you; before I see others or even myself. I see something in you that is unexplainable. Remember the question you once asked me. The elusive question: Why? I gave you an answer that came straight out from my mouth, rather than from my heart. Though true for that time being, it was part of the process of pushing it all way down. Someone brought that an almost identical question back up again yesterday: Why? Here's my answer, reiterated: If I ever knew the answer to that question, I would have a much easier time myself.

But I don't have the answer. And I don't see any momentary burst of intelligence that will suddenly give me the answer. I don't see anything hints or signals that say... 'Hey... Here's the answer... ...' No. Life doesn't provide for such things. I think, if I were to think hard enough, I might concoct a stupid story that somebody somewhere is playing a fool with me, and making a fool out of me. But no. Life doesn't provide for that either. What has happened is the result of my previous actions, and what will happen is the result of my actions now.

Now that you've told me something along the context that SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN, WHEN THE TIME COMES, I'm only reminded of how that second phrase was how I decided to begin it all. It seems to have come one full round; a complete circle, whereby the ending comes right back to the beginning, and maybe, finally, all can be comprehended in that instant. I don't know whether you did it intentionally, or it was unintended. But whatever it was, I noticed the undeniable connection, or maybe I was just being overly inferential on trivial matters. It's ok. I'm known to make mistakes, after that big blunder. But it's even more ok, because this time, it doesn't have its consequences.

For me, all I want is peace, or at least anything along those lines. Anything better would also be acceptable for me. However, anything worse is not something I long to happen, but if left to chance, the probability is as good as anything better happening. I just hope that maybe, you do have similar intentions in your actions as well. The impression you leave will always be a good one in me, no matter how much I tend to dislike certain things happening. Though only knowing you for at most half of my millennia life, you have been an integral part of it because it has hugely affected me, be it in a good or bad way. As they say, it is the quality, not quantity.

i'll hold on

MAXIMUM RIDE



plundging into inexistance


have I fallen from grace, deep down below?
have I been a tourniquet, blocking my senses?



I DON'T CARE...

my past is past...
all I care is my future.




I have my family, my REAL friends and myself. GOD's looking over as well. I don't have to lead my life thinking all about my past. I'm droping all irrelevant things that have been clouding me from my real objective in life, "TO BE HAPPY".

How can I be happy thinking of the only the sad and depressing? From now on, I'm going to do everything with my full 100%, not leaving anything to mourn for myself.

I DON'T NEED sympathy from anyone. Help maybe, but NEVER sympathy.
It's my pride I guess, I figure I have to inflate my hot head a little. I trying to see things in a new prespective.


Hope I'm okay...



FEELING REAL HIGH THIS FEW DAYS!!

WHOOTS

wonder..
maybe because...

i've decided to hold on...


recently, so many people are breaking up and letting go of the ones they love sooo easily... but... i've made up my mind.. to hold on the this person.. i will.. i MUST!!! i CAN!!


I need you here tonight,
Holding me at your side,
Living only by the light
That radiates from your eyes.
My comfort in your touch,
My peace brought from your voice,
Only helps to prove how much
Your love means to my life.
You place your hand in mine,
So I will stay nearby,
Love is all I hope to find
As you're holding me at your side.
Whispering you love me,
And holding me with care,
I open my eyes to look and see
You are faithfully still there.
To stay here for the night,
Is what I hope you will decide,
Because I want you here tonight
To hold me at your side.

*dear god, the only thing i ask of you is to hold him when i'm not around when I'm much too far away..

help!!

help.. i just wanna have my own self back in school.. nowadays i feel like im someone else in farhana's body.. come on.. im not like this.. im all weak.. why am i feeling like this.. i've made up my mind to start a neww beginning, since its a brand new year, without this person.. but why am i feeling otherwise?? why cant i just do as what my brain orders me to!!??? i admit yes.. i do feel different without this person around.. i do feel some sort f empty. but im trying m best to put this feeling aside.. i feel sad too.. but what am i supposed to do about it?? this space deep deep in my heart looks for this certain someone everyday, everytime WITHOUT fail.. what do i do?? how do i take this misery..this pain.. away and out of me?? sob sob.. help me please someone...


Do not save your loving speeches
For your friends till they are dead;
Do not write them on their tombstones,
Speak them rather now instead.


To Hanif...
We had angry words...We had a spat and said hurtful words we didn't mean. How silly it all seems.At the light of a new day. What happened to "for better or worse?" Have we grown too intolerant of the other?We fool ourselves to believe we fully know the other - Our patience has waned.
I tresure you for all eternity.
So, I promise and I hope you do too to be a bit more as we were when all that mattered was the nearness of each other.
I promise to do my best to be less judgmental. To be less quick with my tongue and less short with my wit. Forgive me for saying that which I wish I hadn't..And I shall forgive you too.
I cherish you for all eternity.

I am sorry...

A little someone,
Noor Farhana


memories..

I treasure sweet old memories
As time goes swiftly by.
A few bring smiles of happiness
And some tears to the eye.

They all are precious in their way,
Reopening doors of old
That have been shut these many years--
What pictures they unfold!

These dear old, sweet old memories
All play their special part
In bringing joy and opening up
The latch strings of the heart.

Memories are heartbeats
Sounding through the years
Echoes never fading
Of our smiles and our tears.
Moments that are captured
Sometimes unaware
Pictured in an album
Or a lock of hair.

Images that linger
Deep within the mind
Bit of verse we cherished
Once upon a time.
Through the musty hallways
Of the days we knew
Ever comes the vision
Beautiful and true.

Memories are roses
Blooming evermore
Full of fragrant sweetness
Never known before.
Life must have a meaning
Goals for which to strive
Memories are lights that burn
To keep the heart alive

i trusted you more than anything,
But I made the biggest mistake,
And i was hurt in the end.

I believed you, I trusted you,
I cared for you, and at times I cried for you.
But in the end I didn't get the real truth
I made the Biggest mistake
And now my heart bleeds.

So now I'm asking you why?
Why did you hurt me that way?
I called on you when I needed help.
But in the end I was betrayed

I did everything in my power,
To make you suceed, to achieve your goals.
Then you turned your back on me,
And now my heart is filled with holes.

And now I'm the fool
I believed you, I trusted you
Now you say you are sorry.
Is that all you have to say?

the irony..

wee!! second day of school.. how fun is it to be in school.. but the sense of emptiness in the heart.. ouch.. so painful.. well for those who do not know. here's a brief summary.. last year was a year to remember and cherish i would say or rather, some would call it a year where doors are opened and left open without a beautiful ending.. well you see.. there was this person.. whom i got closer to as the days go by.. spent my time hanging out with this person.. well.. as days go by, it got more fun being around each other.. less time was spent on books... hmm.. not realy less time but i should say MORE sacrifices made.. went to the movies.. eat nachos, ice creams macdonalds, library.. everything felt heavenly despite all the bickering we had.. but.. something happened whch i myself have no clue of.. this person decided to move away from me.. or should i say to push me away.. we started to drift apart.. *two to one back to two* haiz.. it was kinda sad.. all those memories.. all those awlks.. all those talks. just left behind. just in a blink of a eye.. this person wanted to be normal frenz.. well.. schol started but this person starts to kind of avoid me.. shift to another seat in chem lab when we were at close proximity.. is that how frenz are supposed to behave?? ohhh the irony..

however everytime i see this person something just keeps bugging me.. but i will not know if its true.. it would just be a thought left unanswered..

i somehow have this feeling that tis person feels empty too.. just lke the way i do.. this person has difficulty facing each other thus the avoidance.. this person doesnt seem as cheerful as last yr.. as lively as last yr anymore..

Questions I ponder over
Stuck inside my mind
Paranoia of rover
Everything's intertwined
Though I may have to doubt
I've had had enough of strife
I don't know what's a must
But these memories and thoughts
I'll combust
For only pain they've brought
For only hurt they've sought
Yet how could I
Even try
To get rid of the past
This memories aside I cast?
Questions I ponder over
Stuck inside my head
Paranoia of rover
I'll wait for the past to fade



THANK YOU oh so much. I guess I really know who my real friends are.. Thank you.


I guess I think too much. With all my workload on me, I'm actually glad to know that I'm stressed. It means I'm alive and going through life. But with me, as feeble and a paper wall, having back covers like brick walls called friends and the cement called family, I'm still standing and supporting the lifeforce named Farhana. WHOA.

I've carved out so much time from my school and activities to spend some time with my family and friends. I don't give a care about others who can't seem to even talk to me what more speak to me. IGNORE me, Im sad that you act as though my existance is mere invisiblility. For REAL FRIENDS who have yet to desert me, you guys really are people I'm really glad to have known. Especially some extremely wonderful friends who have helped me so much these few days in which I'm struggling with all my responsibilities and MAJOR decision makings. Thank you for all who care. I love you guys.

THANK YOU
For all the support, I really needed them and my heartstrings are pulled by all the things everyone out there who has helped me and still is. My deepest grattitude. I know it'll never do justice to just say thank you, but I hope it will be enough.


to everyone, especially my best buddies
THANK YOU


To Serve With Pride and Dedication

That's the motto. But... There's always more than meets the eye. The conflicts and disputes that go unrest behind closed doors, its scary.
Politics.

How do wars begin? A small talk, turns into a misunderstanding as the both parties get the concept all mixed up. Then a some further aggravation rocks the whole situation, and everything goes downhill.

Like all wars, everyone wants to win. Yet, have anyone given a thought about it? It's not who wins or loses, it's who survives ultimately. But getting on each other's throats causes more stir in the storm, not only that, have the thought of other civilians getting affected ever haunt them? The hurlyburly of war. Terrifying, nevertheless, it's what's happening. Not just the larger scaled wars between countries, there's the wars between 2 organizations, the wars in an organization itself and the wars between 2 people.

Somehow or rather, its everything to do with power and authority. Where is the little love? Can't everyone just give and take? A post is merely a post, a position is nothing more than a position. Are all these materials so important that it fogs up the real importance of love? Love, in a form of friendship and respect. Is it all lost just because no one can see its beauty? It takes so much to meet, know, accept, understand, learn and appreciate someone, forming a bond we know as friendship. Yet, a miniscule problem, seems so destructive. Is friendship that fragile? I wonder.

This has given me an insight of the horrors of the skeletons locked up in the closet. A little glimpse, I can tell, its going to overflow the entire planet. On the other hand, I'm mentally prepared. I don't want power or authority. Though it's cool to have some. But I'm not sure I can handle it. I mean the urge to abuse the honors given, scary thoughts. I'm not evil, no one is born evil. It is created. I believe that the surge of power triggers the EVIL BUTTON in people. Yet, who doesn't hunger for a little power, authority and respect? My main goal in life is for happiness to never cease. I may be unhappy, but as long as there's no grudges and everyone else is happy, I'm willing to forgo a little.

This may all seem small talk, but it's the truth. Go ahead..Doubt me? Who cares what I think? I'm simply younger and I don't understand all these "grown up" stuff.

I'm really sorry if I've offended anyone. I tend to be very frank, I wonder why. This is not to make "YOU GUYS" feel uncomfortable, it's to make you guys see that there are more things than winning the "war". I not a person to see a crisis happen right under my nose, and not do anything about it. Forgive me for intruding. I have nothing else to say but, please THINK. Wasn't it better before all these happened? I never liked change, but it happens.

Once again, I apologize with upmost sincerity, I never meant any harm. I love you guys, and I don't like to see the people I love, respect and admire go ballistic over nothing at all. I'm very sorry.

okies.. got to go now.. cant be writing too much.. MUGGING STARTS TODAY!!! i cant wait!! *farhana's all excited about mugging* hehe..

school....

routine life
getting sick of it, but used to it nevertheless.

A New Day Begins
Wake up at 0600
Ready by 0630
On the bus at 0700
Get to class by 0730
Bum my books from the locker by 0740
Finish up any OUTSTANDING homework
Bell rings at 0755
Assemble by 0800 to sing the National Anthem and the Pledge taking
Lesson begins at 08plus
Survival of the fittest begins
Brain stuffing begins
School's out at 1725
Slack around school
Home by 1830 (subject to differ)
Starts homework by 2000
Revision and some reading at 2130
Official Slack time 2230
In bed by 2315
The Day Ends



That's a normal day for yours truly. I feel like a zoombie going about a usual day. I need some excitement, some fun, some difference, some LIFE. School is basically fine and cool as long as there's something to look forward to and people I look forward to see and talk to. Studying's not all that bad. The complaining I hear from other students are like unbearable agonies and sufferings of the worst kinds of pains. Maybe they don't see a purpose in the attending of school. now that i do.. SCHOOL'S FUN!!!!

I've thought about my life a little, reflected on my past and thought about my future. I figured that I've wasted about an hour staring into mid-air, but at least the wheels in my head kept moving.
I figured that
As long as I'm willing to live, I'll find a purpose in life.
As long as I try to be happy, I'll find happiness.
As long as I do my best, there's nothing I'm going to regret.
As long as I want something, no one can stop me from getting it.
The only thing that's stopping me, is me.
I'm the only obstacle out there. I'm going to overcome my fear somehow or another. No matter what others say, I don't give a s*** about the crticism I get as long as I know what I'm doing is right.

So go ahead, make my day or ruin it, inspire my life or dampen my feelings, encourage me or doubt my abilities..I am who I am and nothing's ging to change that fact.

I've given up feeling sorry about my sorriest fate. I'm going to stop behaving like the world's ending this instance. I'm going to be as joyful as anyone can get. At least I'm going to try to be NORMAL. Not that I ever was... But it never hurts to try something normal once in a while

For those who have no complete idea of what I'm talking about, leave it as that and don't even find out. It's not worth your time. Trust me.



It hurts to be abandoned, left alone to grieve.
It hurts to know that people lie, and that they do it with deliberateness.
It hurts to discover that people you thought you knew are really completely different.
It hurts to find out the truth, even if you suspected it all along.
It hurts to realize that what you had thought was reality is really just a complex construction of pretense, a facade.
It hurts to see the past reliving itself in the ones you love.
It hurts to know that there is nothing that can be said or done to make things better.


It's the worst experience to LOSE SOMEONE CLOSE TO YOU.
It's horrible to think they don't know that you always think of them, hope for love to be returned and caress ,however all my hope is gone and my passion has been drained.

Because
I've been there.
I know what it's like.
I know how it feels.
I'm familiar with that abyss.

Guess it's true that if you truly love someone so deep, so true and so pure, you'll let them go. And if love is returned from the bottom of the heart, then it's really love made in heaven..

Don't everyone wish their fairytale ending to be along that line? Don't you? I know I do.


If I had a rose for everytime I thought of you, I'll be picking roses my entire lifetime. But there's simply not enough roses to fill the thoughts and love I have...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Welcoming the dawn of a completely new beginning, many join in the basking of the celebration of the new year with loved ones and friends in many countdown parties and new year bashes across the country and all over the world. I myself am no different from these people, I am afterall totally into this celebration thing.

Yesterday, 31Dec 2007, the last and final day of the whole year. Its significant to myself as this is the day I'll look at my achievements, losses and what I've learnt for the entire year.


Now the most "exciting" part begins...
The waiting
But I kept myself busy looking into the sky. I was scanning the skies for stars. To my DISAPPOINTMENT, there was none. Suddenly, a tiny little star appeared. It was for a short while, but it still amazed me. Before the clouds decided that the star had enough limelight. I made a wish nevertheless. Hoped it came true. The first and only star I saw on the last and concluding day of the year.

Well...
I waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited

FINALLY
the midnight hour came. The fireworks began. A full blow of 15minutes worth of fireworks from 3 different places was worth it. Yet, I was speechless at the thought of ""What's so good about fireworks?". I know they're pretty and amazing, but why? The crowd was going "Ooohhss and Aaahhss and Whoaaass"..I forgot everything and just submerged myself into the joy and happiness I felt. It was great.



So to start of the new year, I've made several resolutions in hope that'll I'll keep them.


Till next time,
A very Happy New Year
with all the usual greetings attached. To everyone who is currently reading this post...May all your dreams be fulfilled.

My very first post of 2008. This year will be filled with many 'my-firsts', and the list will go on. I could start with the first sms I sent, or the first place I went to, or even my very first word. However, that would be too long, and unsuitable for a blog entry. Rather, I would write on my last few thoughts for the year 2007.

The closing moments of 2007 brought no form of closure to my heart. But that is not to say that I am looking forward to 2008, it's just to say I wished 2007 hasn't ended yet. With a question unanswered, with a speculation unconfirmed, with a thought unprovoked, how could the year end with a peace of mind (at least for my mind).


Oh well... I think 2008 will be better. Wait.. Here's the resolutions I promised...

1. A smooth transition into yr 3 life. I want to be able to cope with the added responsibility, stress and pressure. I expect to be completely adjusted in 3 days time, especially to the regular timetable and set aside time for everybody who is important to me, if not possible, then by 7 days.

2. Good grades at least for the mid year exams or its equilavent. Maintain a respectable academic standard throughout the year..

3. Improve my level of stamina, strength and acceleration, in summary, my fitness. to my maximum. At least 2 runs a week. Never to skip a band practise without any valid reason.

4. Be faithful to my religion, my family, my close circle of friends and you. At the same time, I intend to make new friends and widen my social circle. I want to learn to accept everybody for who they are and not discriminate.

5.Maintain a low profile and keep silence most of the time in class. speak only when spoken to..

6.Be healthy..not too much fried food, KFC,MACDONALDS etc. not too much sweets as well..

7.Practise piano regularly so that after A level exms can just revise and take Grade 8 exam ASAP.Practise MUCH MORE maths too..

8.Save MORE money..